Happy Birthday!

Welcome to your birthday blog! hopefully it wasn't too hard

roses are red, voilets are not blue,not even for sunghoon, i would trade you! or whatever the fuck, its like 1 in morning and my fingers hurt😔. anyway i made us a little blog/website situation, its not the cutest but i am a beginner. i hope you love it! ♥

bombastic side eye- im kidding that meme is so old- speaking of old. you are now...20😀. take care of those knees. but fr i would have been more worried if i didn't know you are gonna age like fine ass wine, and you are practically already a grandma. so don't be scared or worry, we'll be rocking together in an old home gossiping about elons musks new brain chip in no time ✨

Our Friendship Timeline

how we got here

It started in the winter of 2018. Shit was so fucking different from right now. I distinctly remember the first time you reached out to me my dad made me cut the call in advance so I wouldn't "get carried away". I would have never called you again, and I often think about what would have happened if you didn't call me again. I probably wouldn't have made it...I really wouldn't have but anyway, you called me and that's how it began BTS, I was just starting to get into BTS cause all the girls in my class were simping for them. One direction, you just liked them. The agreement was technically that I would get into one direction and you would get into BTS...but unfortunately I didn't keep my promise but once again, you did. You got into BTS, after which one house seven demons quickly followed suit. Oh I will never forget that God forsaken fanfiction. I still remember that scene with jin and the shower and the way I nearly screamed. Talking to you about the fanfiction was probably one of the most enjoyable thing I had ever done in my life back then. Then we talked for 5 hours straight making up that story where we were biker girls, Then another fanfiction, then school stuff, then learning twice choreographies, then stupid jokes, the mad house (my god that was a fever dream) Then on my roof it happened...the first time I sobbed to you, I was devastated to know my father would never look at me with love...that my father begged god to ensure I could carry his line much like my brother...but I was his curse, his burden. He told me all of this with a chuckle, like it meant nothing to him, like I meant nothing to him but the moment I called you...I understood while I might mean nothing to him, there was someone I meant something too. We filmed many fashion frenzies, had several failed attempts to have aesthetic sleep overs like in the Niki and Gabi shows, had several failed attempts to recreate life hacks, the butter and sugar frosting "attempt" if you can even call it that 😅 and then when I was over at your house you told me about your worries, I realized how unfair the world is. Cause the person who lit up my whole world was told she can't have friends and had bad breath by fucking assholes in her class. That was the day I swore that we would be the difference we needed. You already were my difference...I swore I would be the difference for you.

Our Best Memories

well, that escalated pretty quickly but anyway. I would love to some how save every single one of our memories in a chest and live them over and over again but unfortunately science is a bit busy curing cancer or whatever, so im gonna put some here and pray i remember what a website is when im 89 and have dementia:

• Okay, this might be extremely random and I don't even remember what year this is from but we were kids and you lived in your old old home, the one with the swing in the terrace/garage situation. But your mom yelled at us to clean up all the toys in your room and told us we couldn't leave until we did. We did so very meticulously...until we got bored and started trying to sneak out of the room to do god knows what but we did. It was all fun and games until we broke a glass💀 it was a mess but my god did I have fun, I felt like a spy and like such a rebel. I'm not even sure if you remember or not but I do...it was such a fun day. Then again every day with you is
• Then of course we have the first time we stayed up until 9 in the morning talking. It was our first tier List, "realistically speaking, which idol could we see eachother with and why". We do it every year but that one is special to me. The light blue sky peaking through the curtains as we talked and talked, seeing you laughing to my right. My dad just had to jump in the middle and kinda ruin it but oh well. We have stayed up god knows how many nights together but that one just doesn't ever leave my mind, not that I want it too anyway!
• And last but definitely not least, us dancing in the rain (oddly romantic I know but we have already established that we are never beating the lesbian allegations) might seem so fucking weird especially since we have had so many other memories that might seem more important. But I don't ever wanna forget it, I really really never wanna forget it. The gentle pitter patter of the rain, the song, the few parts we kept messing up. I would literally never need to go to therapy again if I could take that memory as a supplement.

things i want to do with you

okay, i know this is your birthday and i will add more to this list if you ask me too but for now this is a list of stuff i wanna do with you:

• grow old with you♥
• watch you get married
• go to a concert with you
• adopt a pet with you♥
• move abroad with you

i wanna do so so much shit with you. i hope we get to live together and do so much shit together before the world burns down...i truly do love you,and i hope that one day when i am actually about to slip into permanent sleep ill look back on everything we have done and say "wait what was that one thing we forgot to do?...meh can't remember but at least we did these!"

Game Time! 🎮

we always argue over stuff like decisions and paying and what not so i made this so we can resolve them through this and keep track🌚:

About This Website

During the war around 3:32 in the morning I realized something. How grateful I am to you I knew I always was grateful but to know that even if I was to die the next minute, I could glance at a picture of you and know that I was loved...It meant more to me then I knew. I kinda decided then for sure that I was making this. Everyone says the internet will long out live us, I thought what better way to celebrate you then to leave the parts of you I love the most somewhere on the internet♥

i hope one day you will stumble across this again and think "my god she was so sappy".